This has been such a whirlwind of a year. I FINISHED MY FRESHMAN YEAR OF COLLEGE. No doubt one of the best years of my life, there has been countless tears and worries, but the times of abounding joy and laughter outnumbers them all.
I like to call this season of life I'm in: excited contentment. Let me explain myself.
There has been very short periods of time in my life where I have felt truly content in myself, God, and the position in which he has placed me. Maybe you can relate...
You got that job promotion or you got out of a relationship. And what did you do with it? Maybe you wanted to keep gaining power in your social status and in your work place. Maybe although you may have been satisfied being single for a little while, you soon got impatient and sought out love in the wrong places, for a "quick fix."
Oh how our generation is plagued by this mindset! We constantly want MORE, and will do almost anything to fill the void. What happened to "give us this day our daily bread" ? Our DAILY bread. Meaning enough nourishment for the day, just to get through.
In my life right now, and for the past few months. I've learned what it's meant and what it feels like to content in my current circumstances. (Here's a rough outline: )
- I am single.
Now, although before I have fell into singleness with the approach of "Oh I'll be single, and focus on myself and on God, and the right person will come along." I would tend to be jump at the first opportunity of a relationship. Never really grasping how important it is to embrace being "alone".
Currently, I am doing just that. I have never been this content in myself. I'm not looking for a relationship, I'm not looking for someone to "talk to," I'm simply genuinely satisfied in my relationship status, and have come to the conclusion (even though I was sure I had reached this verdict before), that God will bring the right person in my life just at the right time, and for once in my life I have no interest in rushing that process
2. I am going undecided next semester.
Not knowing what exactly I want to do in my life has led me to make the decision to be undecided next semester to explore my career options. At first, I was really anxious about this decision, worried that taking a step back was the wrong choice. However, I truly feel excited for the opportunity to seek out my other options.
2. I am going undecided next semester.
Not knowing what exactly I want to do in my life has led me to make the decision to be undecided next semester to explore my career options. At first, I was really anxious about this decision, worried that taking a step back was the wrong choice. However, I truly feel excited for the opportunity to seek out my other options.
3. I am about to have the craziest summer of my dreams.
This summer is just about to kickstart. I'm on SNU's worship band this summer, and will be traveling with my team to different church camps all summer, and we start training next week. And while I'm BEYOND ecstatic for this adventure, I've honestly had some period of doubt and anxiety.
My mom told me a couple days ago, as she knew I was wrestling with these conflicts: "You are in exactly the place you are intended. God is gonna use you guys to witness to hundreds of people, and even though we'd love to have you here, your calling is THERE"
We have a tendency of:
When we're here we want to be THERE.
When we're nervous of being there, we want to just stay HERE.
Philippians 3:13-14 says this: "12 I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want.13 I can do all this through him who gives me strength."
Just stop. Take a breath. And consider the fact that where you are, may be exactly where God wants you to be.
He knows the deepest desires of our hearts, and he will honor those.
How easily we forget that he is more than enough to satisfy our hungering and searching souls.
With all this being said, by no means do I mean I have it all together, or I don't have a care in the world. In fact, its a little scary and nerve racking to not know where your path leads even into tomorrow. However, I am confident that he will equip you, and equip me, for the journey he has set out for us.
Whatever it is for you. Whether it be being content in your singleness, to being content with your current job or paycheck, find that place within yourself and in God.
Look around the present and towards the future through the lens of excited contentment. There's nothing wrong with looking forward to all that is to come, God has promised us that he has plans in store for us beyond our wildest imagination.
We all just need remember to find satisfaction and contentment in the waiting.
Pray with me.
Dear Heavenly Father,
Thank you for creating us each differently. With a different path for each of us uniquely designed. God, I pray that you would help us to learn to find beauty in the waiting and satisfaction in resting in you. Be with us on each of our individual journeys, and help us discover who we are meant to be by seeking you above all other things. Calm our anxieties and worries that come right along with adventure.
We love you Lord,
Amen.
